18/07/2014

WORD UP | done with CZ

printscreens from the great Czech film Samotáři, 2000
'Czechs are nasty to each other because Czech language is nasty.'

Whenever I say I don't ever want to move back to CZ, people give me weird stares and the whole process of patriotic persuading begins. 'Why not? Czechia is such a nice country! We have the best beer here! Won't you miss your friends and family? I guess your parents aren't really happy with that. I would never do that! The Czech Republic is so nice!'

Sure I will / do miss my friends when abroad. Big times.

My parents aren't mad at me for leaving the safety of nuclear family home, why should they, I am an adult for god's sakes and I can live my life at any place I want, right. Plus, they want me to be happy, even if it means seeing me only once in a few months.

And that's the thing. I can't be happy in the Czech Republic. Believe me, I tried. I tried, tried and tried to like it, thinking that maybe it's just the small city curse. But it's the same everywhere, Olomouc, Brno, Prague, no matter which part of CZ, I feel like I don't belong there.

It all started when I began to travel a bit more and realized how each country is different. And then I actually moved to a foreign country and that was a huge twist. It actually wasn't the time I was living in Denmark that changed my view on CZ, it was caused by the comebacks to my 'home'country. Suddenly, it was not okay to wear this and that and neighbours gossiped about each other and people working in services were rude as fuck and the quality of food in supermarket was the same as the one of the damaged goods we used to get from dumpster in DK and people hit their dogs when they had run away and shop assistants never said hi and bus drivers refused to sell you a ticket because they 'don't have the change back' and and and... And all the things that are not so common abroad. I'm not used to not wearing certain shades of lipstick because if I do, a bunch of adolescent pricks will laugh at me (that's the saddest thing, even the youngsters are intolerant and judgemental) or that I am the one who initially has to be nice to the salesperson / waiter cause otherwise he / she will treat me like a piece of shit. I used to be. I'm not anymore.

That being said, I am not completely anti-CZ, not at all. I'm so excited every time I'm coming back, looking forward to my family and friends, cheap prices (of transport and food in restaurants especially) and the fact that I'm not perceived as a poor, Eastern European immigrant here. I praise Czech healthcare as it's (almost) free and the doctors actually try to cure you. Surprisingly enough, I even relish Czech beer. I am not coming back incognito and once in a few years like Milan Kundera, even though I understand why he does that.

So, call me unpatriotic, arrogant or snobbish and tell everyone that I'm just a stupid little girl constantly bragging about living abroad; but I just wanted to sum up the feelings I have whenever someone asks when I am going to move back 'home'.

And why I always answer: 'Never.'

7 comments:

  1. Taky jsem to tak dlouho měla, chtěla jsem žít jinde a myslela si, že kdekoli to bude lepší než v ČR (i kvůli všemu tomu, co jsi vyjmenovala). Tak jsem to zkusila, rok jsem žila v zahraničí a nakonec mi došlo, že i když jsou Čechy státem maloměšťáků a buranů, prostě nechci žít jinde a teď jsem pomalu jak Hrušínský ve filmu Vesnička má středisková, furt se kochám tím, jak je tady krásně:-) A když mě to tu začne štvát, vyrazím po Evropě a zase rychle zjistím, že je to vlastně všude dost podobný.

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  2. Arrogant is the word aye? I feel you girl.
    According to some scientists (and Neal Stephenson) the language we were speaking as kids influenced our organic brain structure, so that the damage is done, code is written and no way to change it. Allegedly. But according to some neuroscientist I found at TED "adolescence" or "being grown up" in terms of neuroscience means that a person finds their place in the world, home, job, social circle and accepts that, starts feeling happy, stops looking for something else AND as a organic consequence their brain stops developing.

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  3. I totally agree with you! I have almost the same opinion like you but I'm more critical about czech people and our temper...especially if we talk about what are you wearing or how you look. That really drives me crazy (I'm from small town so..)! Of course Czech has something special as every country but I don't find it interesting enough for me.
    btw. I really love your blog and most of all I appreciate these kind of articles :)

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  4. I know exactly how you feel. I have the same... Once I wear bright pink lipstick in Přerov and few youngsters (around 15?) scream on me a have really rude jokes. I dont loke small cities, even Prague is starting to look small. And my friends dont understand of my need and call me snob etc. Screw them, they are not friends for me if they at least try to understand what I feel here.

    Thumbs up for you!

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  5. přesně kvůli tomu chci jít na VŠ do zahraničí, protože teď sice můžu na všechno nadávat, ale nemám moc žádný srovnání (a i když se mi občas stane, že odněkud přijedu a vážím si v něčem víc Prahy, většinu času pak říkám, jak bych chtěla bydlet tam a tam). a hodně lidí mi tohle vyčítá a tvrdí, že přece nemůžu odejít, když chci něco zlepšit, tak musím začít tady, ale já v tom nevidím moc žádnej smysl.. jasně, přibývá dobrých podniků a míst, kam jít za kulturou, ale pořád je toho tak málo, že nemám pocit, že by mě tu něco drželo. dík za tenhle článek!

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  6. BRAVE girl and open mind....that's all I can say :) I am too scared to actually do anything...but hope, some day I will be able to make a change for myself

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  7. znám hodně lidí, co to mají jako ty a občas se jim nedivím. já osobně si nedávno uvědomila, že mám Prahu moc ráda. Vyrostla jsem tady a s každým místem mám nějaku vzpomínku, taky ráda cestuju, ale když je to na víc než týden, už jsem trochu praguesick. cestuji proto, aby mi mohlo něco chybět asi. A ještě po třetí jsem ráda, že ty to tady nerada, takže je tvůj blog plnej zajímavejch míst a člověk si víc rozšíří obzory, virtuálně.

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