GNDR | menstruation talks

the taboo surrounding talking about menstruation is definitely loosening up, which is absolutely great, but i would still like to address a somewhat problematic issue related to it.

menstrual health, just like any other health-related thing, is a topic the pharmaceutical/beauty industry is milking till the very last drop, and thus there's a lot of nasty marketing incorporated to make us feel like we have to use exactly this specific product or else we'll suffer through the every single minute of our menstruation. however, this is not only a thing of the commercial, capitalist world of the tampon and intimate wash (did you know that these actually cause more harm than help?) brands, there's also a certain policing coming from within the feminist/eco community.

what the hell am i talking about? the fact that there's way too much discussion about what the 'best' menstrual hygiene product is, yet there is nothing like that. there are a lot of lowkey-shaming articles about how much you destroy the planet when you use disposable tampons/pad, which is of course true, yet there's very little acknowledgement that menstrual cups are not the best fit for everyone, being it due to comfort, shame, religion or any other personal belief. menstruation politics, however liberating it might appear, still tends to police menstruating bodies heavily, which is not progressive at all.

thus, i would just like to say one thing:
no matter if you let your blood flow loose or collect it via any kind of menstrual hygiene product, it is your body and your menstrual blood, and you decide what you do with it. of course, there needs to be a certain responsibility in (all) our consumerist choices, but your own health and comfort should be the most important in this case.


ESCAPE | london/brighton/seaford

i travelled to the UK last weekend to visit my bff G, whom i hadn't seen for almost 4 months (crazy!). we were mostly in London, but we also took a short daytrip to Brighton and the white chalk cliffs in Seaford. i'd say that was actually my favourite part of the trip – seaside, sunshine, colourful houses, lots of food (limited edition strawberry Oreos, oh lord), and true relaxing time (and burnt nose, sweat and sore feet). i liked being in London too, but i only got reassured of what i had been thinking about it before: that it's too hectic, posh and trendy for me to live in. however, i fell in love with Barbican and £3 meal deals.

this was my first time travelling to the UK after 5 years and i have to tell you i had real problems with understanding the accent. even though English is the language i study/work in and use the most, majority of the native speakers i know are either American or Canadian, so i completely forgot about the British accent. i felt really embarrassed, lol.

the day before, i went to see the new Nick Cave film 'One More Time With Feeling', which was unbelievably touching, and made me get the new record straight after it was released in the morning. i listened to it the whole trip, which was strange knowing that so many places we were visiting played an important role in the making of the album. hmmm.


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no spoon? no problem!
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Notting Hill
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Liverpool Street St | donuts i brought from Berlin


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Seaford Head
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zen garden
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Tesco/Sainsbury's feast | G the surfer
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ECO | ethics vs economics/possibilites


quite recently, i stumbled upon this article, i kind of wanted to scream with joy. someone finally put my internal struggles into words – how much it sucks when you realize how important it is to make conscious shopping choices, but when your own budget prevents you from it.

i've been writing about sustainability, ecology and conscious consumerism (can such thing actually exist?) for quite some years now, yet i find myself reaching for the cheap pasta wrapped in plastic at Lidl almost every week and tossing out multiple metal cans quite regularly. every time i do this, it feels like a sharp cut into my soul – you, who preach so much about reducing waste and being sustainable, you do this? how pathetic. there are so many options to be even more eco-friendly, yet you don't do them! you fucking suck.

yes, there are so many ways to become a conscious consumer: zero-waste shops, composting at home, making your own snacks instead of buying them and so on, no doubt about that. but, as most of these things often cater to those who have a steady income, have their own private place to live and can afford to spend their time on practising them, i, as a student with a limited budget, who has to move every other month because of the current surging housing crisis, who, in order to pursue own dreams, moves from a country to country every couple of months, find it impossible to make use of them. yes, i'd love to get myself a bunch of glass jars, only shop at Original Unverpackt, a waste-free grocery store in Kreuzberg, prepare my own cookies to bring to work, make my own deodorant and toothpaste and what not, but there are several elements that prevent me from it, and one of them is money. as the author of the previously mentioned article said, not everyone can vote with their dollars—or, in my case, euros—but that does not mean that my efforts are completely pointless or that i'm betraying my beliefs.

i am still trying hard to save the planet on as many accounts as i can (for example, i strongly refuse to shop at fast-fashion stores, even though it sometimes means it takes 10 times longer to find a garment i really need, like socks or underwear), but i will, for a while at least, have to keep buying pre-packaged stuff from Lidl, because i simply cannot afford to do otherwise, and i should stop feeling bad about it. unfortunately, a lot of decisions we make are often decided without us actively participating in the decision-making. 

i am not trying to make this a whole apologetic piece about myself, i just want to point out that even if we want to support a good cause, the way our society is structured can rule it out for some of us. however, it is important to keep on raising our voices about these topics, and to never stop hoping that this will eventually change. perhaps that's actually even more influential. or?