GENDER | open queer library

2017-05-31 14.00.58

it's no secret how much i hate how elitist queer academia is. i think it's a bunch of bullshit that these highly educated academics preach about how we need to destroy class and gender and all other unfair structures prevalent in our society, but make it virtually impossible for anyone without a university degree to be able to read those revolutionary works they take so much pride in writing. posh language is one thing, but it's also about access to those works; which is often very rare.

and i say, what a crap. i'm sick of information being available only to those who are approved by the academic circle. and because i don't wanna end up like those dear academics, complaining about this and that but staying in my educated bubble without actually doing anything to change it, i've set up a lil online open queer library for anyone interested. it's all the PDFs i have saved on my computer, some real classics of queer studies, some more niche studies. i've done PDF giveaways on my Instagram before, so why not make it available for everyone all the time?

it's not much, but it's at least a little step forward to making the stupid academia a bit more accessible, isn't it? so just click the link below and read, read, read, my dears, there sure is a lot of interesting stuff!

online queer library open to all

here's what you can find there so far (will keep on updating):

Sandra Lee Bartky – Foucault, Femininity, and the Modernization of Patriarchal Power

bell hooks – Ain't I a Woman: Black Women and Feminism

bell hooks – Feminism Is for Everybody: Passionate Politics

Simone de Beauvoir – The Second Sex

Leo Bersani – Is the Rectum a Grave?

Judith Butler – Bodies That Matter

Judith Butler – Gender Trouble

Judith Butler – Undoing Gender

Judith Butler and Performativity for Beginners (worksheet, summary of Butler's theories)

Tim Dean – Mediated intimacies: Raw sex, Truvada, and the biopolitics of chemoprophylaxis

Michel Foucault – Discipline and Punish: The Birth of the Prison

Michel Foucault – The History of Sexuality, Volume 1: An Introduction

Jack Halberstam – Gaga Feminism

Annamarie Jagose – Feminism & Psychology

Toril Moi – From Femininity to Finitude: Freud, Lacan, and Feminism, Again

Laura Mulvey – Visual Pleasure and Narrative Cinema

Juana Maria Rodriguez – Queer Sociality and Other Sexual Fantasies

Gayle S. Rubin – Thinking Sex

have fun, educate yourself, and make academia queer again!


ANALOG | disposable spring + summer

i've been planning to move all my analog pics to my official portfolio and only publish them there and keep this blog solely for thinkpieces etc., but it turns out that Wordpress isn't cooperating with me as i expected, even after numerous tries, meh. somehow i didn't even realize how long i had been trying to solve this portfolio issue, until i found out that i have around 100 unpublished analog snaps saved on my computer last week. so, let's hope i will eventually figure out how to successfully collaborate with that bratty Wordpress, but meanwhile, i will keep on posting analogs here.

i weeded out my favorite pics from that huge pile, shot over the past 6 months. 
what's happened during that time?
i started getting medication for my depression and anxiety. got accepted to Gender Studies Master's at the Charles Uni in Prague, long-distance. spent two months in CZ trying to get my mental health together. published a zine with Kink. organized an exhibit and a workshop with Soft Within. did artist management at Yo! Sissy. had many visitors in Berlin, including my mom. got my heart broken, got completely fucked over. lost a lot of money. started selling my own merch, also at Other Nature, the Berlin-based queer alternative sex shop with which i collaborated for my Bachelor thesis. went to Vienna with my parents, twice. lost a lot of weight, due to the medication. had 1 panic attack only, but still struggled with anxiety and insecurity a lot. started to enjoy cooking again. had problems with a stalker neighbor. went to Copenhagen, to visit my friends who paid for my transport as a birthday gift. started making my own perfumes. slept a lot.

13 04
Copenhagen | D at my place
sexy time in Prague
P the newspaper delivery girl
vegan tom kha gai
Black Lives Matter march
Lidl pizza date w/ N | K
D's rosemary
A's way
Vietnamese brunch in Vienna
news in Vienna | N the happy kid
queer picnic in Berlin
Soviet War Memorial | first watermelon w/ D
Prague Pride
Siegessäule | D the fairy
Soft Within exhibition
D the artist
Kink x Curated by Girls x coGalleries zine
K in Kromeriz | mom
newspaper delivery
spring in CZ
essentials | K cooked me lunch
G in Copenhagen
mom at the best pizza in Berlin (Masaniello) | L in Berlin


WORD UP | screw your language elitism

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Screenshot from Melissa A. Fabello's article "Why Grammar Snobbery Has No Place in the Movement" on Everyday Feminism

hold on before you call out someone on how they phrased something or laugh about their accent. your language snobbery is oppressive and discriminating, so please stop.

it is no secret that i hate the pompous language academia is so fond of using. however, what i want to address in this article is something a bit different, way more common (as in happening to common people, every day, everywhere), and way less bougie. nevertheless, it is equally oppressive and, fancy words aside, stupid.

now this problem is something i've noticed both amongst English and Czech speaking folks. and while it for sure happens all across our society, i wanna focus on when it shows up in queer and/or leftist activist community. what the hell am i talking about?

some sort of language/grammar discrimination. you might have noticed it already. it is my native-English-speaking friend who works as an editor and complains when articles aren’t written by other native speakers because he can simply “tell it wasn’t a native speaker.” it is my super activist leftist friends, otherwise incredibly open-minded and accepting, who get into Facebook comment fights almost daily and often call out their opponent’s grammar mistakes. it is native speakers rolling their eyes when someone tries to hold a conversation in a language that’s not their second or third or whatever and stutters or makes grammar mistakes or just has a strong accent. it is anyone who has ever dismissed someone’s opinions for how it was said/written. it is anyone laughing at someone else’s accent, or grammar, or just the way of speaking.

focusing on the form instead of on the message is a) plain stupid, b) an upright refusal to listen to those who aren’t privileged enough. because, surprise surprise, language skills are often very closely tied to class, as class not only gives access to education, it also means being surrounded by people with certain language assets, it determines your learning abilities,… class has to do with a lot of stuff, and often sets what your future life will be from the day you are born. which is why it always outrages me to see queer/leftist people call someone out on their language because suddenly their fight against the oppressive class division is gone and they become the oppressor of those less privileged themselves (and yes, i definitely stand behind the opinion that language skills are a form of privilege).

another thing is that people have learning disabilities. people have problems learning languages. people get nervous and make mistakes? should this mean they should keep their mouths shut and let those more skilled do all the talking/story telling. hell no.

by choosing to focus on how something is said instead what is said is cutting oneself off those most important stories, because those who are least encouraged to speak are usually those we should listen to the most. and when it comes from a community that actively criticizes the oppressive social hierarchy, it is just damn pathetic.